A FRIDAY MEDITATION – A Vow of Stability

Lead me Lord, lead me by your Spirit, make your will clear for my future.
For it is You LORD, You the wounded healer,
who makes my heart sing and my feet dance for joy.
Fill me Lord, fill me with your Spirit – Spirit of love, Spirit of joy and peace.
Be my rock, be my rock of refuge, of courage and strength for my journey.
Heal me Lord. Heal me by your Spirit, my every need and want.
For it is You LORD, You the wounded healer,
who makes my heart sing and my feet dance for joy. 

~ Finian’s Readings, Celtic Daily Prayer

This prayer has been wondering around in my mind and spirit for the last two weeks.  I keep coming back to it because I need it.  I have been reading meditations and scripture hoping to be inspired to write something for most of the day and I wonder if, after five years of monthly and weekly writings and meditations, I have nothing else to say. There are two reasons why I won’t quit, now, even if I don’t feel inspired.  One is that writing helps me to process where I am in my spiritual life, and two, a person is not really able to discern whether God is leading them into or away from a particular thing when there is turmoil and/or dryness in one’s life.

I found this reading about stability from Joan Chittister’s book, Wisdom Distilled from the Daily. Stability is one of the vows Joan follows in her life as a Benedictine nun. It reminds me of my intention to stay put while I wait.

“Stability says that where I am is where God is for me. More than that, stability teaches that whatever the depth of the dullness or the difficulties around me, I can, if I will simply stay still enough of heart, find God there in the midst of them…a vow of stability is…designed to still the wandering heart. …when this…all seems irritating and deficient beyond the bearable…that is precisely the time when the spirituality of stability offers its greatest gift. Stability enables me to outlast the dark, cold places of life until the thaw comes and I can see new life in this uninhabitable place again. But for that to happen I must learn to wait…[Stability] says that we have an obligation to see things through until we have done for them what can be done, and, no less important, until they have done for us what can be done for us…Stability says that we will stay with the humdrum if only to condition our souls to cope with the unfleeable in life…It is not easy to continue the hard work of being here when everything around us says go there where it will be easier…it would be so much simpler just to quit. But the question becomes, what will happen to me as a person…if I don’t persist, if I don’t see this through?…In the first place, I will certainly fail to learn a great deal about myself…[and] in the second place, I will lose the opportunity to grow.” ~ Joan Chittister, OSB

Stability is really more about a place than a state of life, but it fits when I am tempted to quit (or if you are) when I am fairly certain that I am where I need to be, doing what I feel called to do. You may still get some reruns from me for a time.

Be my rock, be my rock of refuge, of courage and strength for my journey.
Heal me Lord. Heal me by your Spirit, my every need and want.
For it is You LORD, You the wounded healer, 
who makes my heart sing and my feet dance for joy.

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