“Some say love it is a river that drowns the tender reed. Some say love it is a razor that leaves your soul to bleed. Some say love it is a hunger an endless aching need. I say love it is a flower and you it’s only seed.
It’s the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance. It’s the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance. It’s the one who won’t be taken who cannot seem to give and the soul afraid of dyin’ that never learns to live.
“When the night has been too lonely and the road has been too long, and you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong, just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snows, lies the seed that with the sun’s love in the spring becomes the rose.” – Amanda McBroom
This week, I wonder where my inner music went. Usually, some song is in my head. I just noticed, the last few days, there was none and I wonder. Why not? In prison ministry, the female residents loved this song made popular by Bette Midler. They always wanted to sing it. They know about broken. They know about abuse. They know about things we don’t really want to know about. They know firsthand the things that are awful. They were trying to have hope. They were trying to find God. That’s why we were there.
Why do I have the news as my homepage on the computer? Depressing. ISIS. Horrible. Acts of Evil. Shootings everywhere, even in our own neighborhoods. People homeless and starving. Children abused and killed, etc. The planet is being abused and could be beyond recovery, etc. Do I even want to know this? No!!
Why don’t I have something uplifting as my homepage? Why? Because I have to know. I need to be aware. How will I know what needs prayer? God loves the evil doer but hates the evil they do and the darkness that evil brings. God calls us to pray for our enemies, and to do good to those who hate us; even when we are furiously angry with them; even when our heart hurts; we feel sick to our stomachs and even when we are afraid. How do we spread light in these desperately dark places? It is too big. How do we live within the Kingdom of God so that Jesus and his Kingdom are visible?
This prayer helps me. I visualize my heart space—the space where God dwells within. I don’t actually know what it looks like but I know how it feels. I put these enemies in that space with God. I pray for his light to surround and fill each one. I pray for evil to be banished. I pray they may know that God loves them. Brennen Manning said, “Suffering, failure, loneliness, sorrow, discouragement, and death will be part of your journey, but the Kingdom of God will conquer all these horrors. No evil can resist grace forever.” So I hold them there and then, I look to see what I can do to bring light into the situations in front of me as God leads.
Sunday is Pentecost, the day we celebrate the coming of the Holy Spirit who gave power to the disciples of Jesus to make a difference and to proclaim the Good News. That same Holy Spirit is with us today for the same reason. Pentecost reminds me to ask God for a fresh infilling of the Spirit, because I run out of gas. I run out of hope. I run out of music. I need all of that to do my part in the Kingdom of God to make him visible to a hurting world. Join me. It takes all of us. Come Holy Spirit. Come.